Break up? What do those words mean to you? Unfortunately, they spoiled the first moments of my new year( thanks man)....You never even mentioned that to me earlier...You know, you're not the only person who has feelings..oh well, thank God i got to spend time with Him and my mum..It was so good to be in the presence of the Lord once again and experiencing a close intimacy with Him.I want more of you oh God ...more....Thank you Lord for giving me the passion and the desire to know you once again..fan the flames in me oh God, the passion for your name.Lord, I thank you for such a wonderful family that i can trust..Sometimes, its just so easy to forget what we have been blessed with until they are taken away..Thank you mum and dad, for being there..I love you..You know, its so interesting to know that the Lord is still there and that i can still hear Him speaking..looks like the lesser amount of activities have enabled me to hear His voice better.Well...look on the bright side,at least it isnt a divorce...haha(sighs)..i dont really know what to say except thank you God for being there when i need you..Thanks for being my best friend.We have a lot of talking to do God.
Your son,
joel

Just spoke to Gladwin about some things that he said to me a few months ago which really affects the way i view him as a brother in Christ.Thank the Lord for such a meaningful conversation and for the opportunity to set things right with my brother in Christ before coming to the Lord and moving on to dear's church.It has been a long time( i think about 6 months ) since i left ym on a bitter-sweet note.It was partly my fault and the Lord's will that i left the ministry.Certain things still bother me though...how the interview went(as though they wanted to get rid of me quickly),...the way Sandy did things( like telling me my flaws at the interview rather than in advance and not making the effort to know me as a person.).Yea, those were the things that bothered( and still continue to bother me).But oh well, the Lord said to forgive and i must learn to forgive as he did(and still does).Got back my results today(or rather yesterday morning,thank you God for bringing me through this semester.though the results were not that great but i still choose to thank you,knowing that my life is still in your hands and that you care for me and also that he who puts his trust in you will never be put to shame.Thank you Lord!

Hurray, its christmas again!As the year comes to a close,I want to thank the Lord for granting me a fruitful year-1) my youths at we-sharecare have finally started to take up leadership positions.2)I finally managed to invite 2 of my friends to my small group outreach.Lord,You are so amazing!I cant relish the thought of not living without you.As for my new year's resolutions, i want to be more decisive and more disciplined in managing my time.that means planning and keeping a time schedule and taking charge of this relationship.Dear, i love you.
To the future me, love the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.

exams were a disaster for me.No confidence of passing all my papers except 1.But I still thank God for granting me peace even as i did my papers.Oh well...somehow, i was stunned when Gladwin told me that i havent been responding to his emails about small groups..Pondering about that...yea..its true..i think i've been too lazy to check my emails...guess i have a habbit to change.Anyway, i got my reservist letter stating my posting to SBAB..yeh...im still part of the airforce which also means that i must start to exercise again...Besides all these,this week's been good so far , being able to meet up with dear and arrange appointments with the rest...How i wish that the holidays would be longer..i'll take this time to appreciate my mum before she starts work next yr..i'll miss her...:( and my 2 grandmothers too before they go home to be with the Lord.